mungkin ini suatu ujian. . .

Assalamualaikum

dah 2 hari aku x update blog ini,... entahlah... mungkin juda kerana sudah terlalu kecewa. . . namun aku tahu bahawa perasaan ini bakal memudaratkan diri aku sendiri . . . i am mentally and physically retarded !!!


subahanallah,

ujian ini is very, very tough... maybe some of you mite think i am over... but then you got to feel it first.. feel the pain, the torture the patience and the anxiety... it has been almost 6 days since Friday, without no new, no hope but only a short sentence ' a SLIM chances' . . . no words can display the pain, no words can ease the pain. . . no i felt pity and sorry to myself. i am the one who gve blossoming words to mira and liana when results were out. . . told them to be strong, courage....

'they are not delicate flowers, but they are SUPERWOMEN ' -- i supported them with my words. . .beautiful isn't it?

but i noe it never easy their life... it just can make them smile. . outside. .

but i get lots of support. . .from my friends. . .and this is the special one...it make me realise how stupid i am . . .
"bt to be truthful, you guys dserve each and every chance to go to uk, this is sumtg to make u guys appriciate uk better when you actually thre. faiz, if i can get tru dis, so cn u, u are obviously stronger than me. . ."

i belive wut she said. . . and i belive that i am gonna get tru this very well. . .at least, no more negative thoughts. . .

but still, . . . deep in my heart, it is still painfull . . .

-ouch-

solat hajat. . .

alam,
kepada semua pelajar kms terutama nya yg dpt apply to uk, here i got some news from you all... it's directly from miss rodina... so, ryte now, as akak hanif said, the incentive programme is not 100% yet. i need you to be patient k, ... seriously. MARA is considering about financial situation to send us to UK. so, the director and miss rudi will have a final meeting with them to confirm whether the incentive uk prog is still valid or not. do not panic, we have back up from director of bhgn pengajian tinggi, en azmi but miss rodi cannot say anything about the chances yet... what i need you all to do now, is pray to God, hoping that they will have a smooth meeting on monday, doakan lah, agar bukakan and lembutkan hati deputy director of education (she is the one who gonna say yes or no) . . . actually, we are not in the safe side yet... anything could be happen.. so here is the plan, even we all are not together, but still i hope that everybody can buat solat hajat, tahajud on ahad malam isnin... doakan la agar dipermudahkan jalan untuk kita ke UK and so on... miss rodi n director really need our prayers and supports... do not call them yet, they are very busy ryte now. let me be the one who keep in touch with her, and i will updates anytg to you all....plizz.... nie bulan ramadhan...semoga diperkenankan doa kite. insyallah... kite akan sentiase berusaha...

liverpool

kat atas nie,,,pic city of liverpool....
ntah la... i'm still not sure whether i still get a chance to go there or not... i really want to go there so badly. . . this Moday, Miss rodi and director will go to MARA hq for the final meeting discussing about Uk studs from KMS.... dear my friends.... pliz... doakan kelancaran meeting tuh.,.. doakan hajat dan usaha kami selama ini.... membuahkan hasil... MARA said they are considering about financial situation first before sending the students to uk... come on MARA, it has been proven that KMS studs is not as stupids as you think... we can achieved best school for a-level exam troughout the nation... come on, give us another chance, and we will show to the world who we are actually... plizz.... listen to us...

crying

aku ingin menagis , menjerit dan meraung... tuhan, berikan kami kekuatan untuk menghadapi cabaranmu....

tenangkan lah hatiku

subahanallah,
ya Allah betape besar nye ujian-Mu pasa hamba mu ini. . . kau berikan lah kami ruang untuk belajar di UK . . . itulah harapan dan cita2 kami... bantulah kami...kami mengharap bantuan darimu...

berdoalah kalian....

sesungguhnya,
hari ini adalah hari yang paling perit buatku.... ak mendapat berita yang kurang menyenangkan. it's about UK incentive prog... dear my dearest friends... bulan puasa nie, let us pray alot to god..hoping that our dreams will come true.. dont blame college, they did nothing wrong but they had done so many for us. . . they are preparing a new appeal for us.. skrg all i need you all to do. pray alot. pray till no end, niekan bulan puasa.... harap2, MARA akan tukar their decision. . hope they will listen to us...

YA ALLAH,

berikanlah kami harapan dan tunaikanlah hajat kami. kami ingin mengembara di muka bumi mu. kami ingin menghargai segala bentuk kurniaan mu. tapi kami manusia biasa..yang hanya mahukan hajat kami tercapa....

impian ku sedikit tercalar....

arini, bgun je pagi ak tros online... bat suroh ak check my email and here...i read things that i would never expected.... MARA is considering back the UK sponsorhip to KMS students. here are the mail i received from a sister of one of my friends...

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Alhamdulillah, it was such a great moment to see all of you graduating. I was there, a sister of one of you. Siap ada gambar batch dengan banyak nya. Hehe.

Thanks a lot to the 3 seniors, Ruzaini Sheffield, Najib Southampton and Hanafi Leeds for introducing themselves. They are here to quench your curiousity insyaAllah.

Talked to Sir Tamam and Tuan Azmi yesterday. The status of this Incentive UK Programme is not 100% confirmed, mainly due to cost strain by MARA, which is the result of division of MARA and rellocation of funding. Cost was not an issue when they announce this to you last year, but now it is an issue. Jadi, pihak Pengajian Tinggi sedang merayu untuk adik-adik and by next week insyaAllah there will be confirmation.

Jadi, akak harap please avoid doing something that will incur cost until this is confirmed, at the same time, adik-adik mmg originally ada apply AUS/NZ kan? Jadi as a backup, please complete your 3 choice universities soon and other procedures that they require.

I hope you are not turned down by this news. InsyaAllah all of you stand a good chance to go to UK, pray hard to Allah swt, it's Ramadhan, insyaAllah dimakbulkan. ..

Congratulations for officially finishing your A Level!


-----> terima kasih MARA kerana mendiamkan diri selama ini. tiada kabar berita selam 2 minggu. membuatkan kami sentiasa menungu dan menanti dengan penoh kesabaran. tapi sekirannya sudah pasti keputusan nya, beritahulah kami secepat mungkin, sebarkan lah berita supaya tiada antara kami yang terlalu mengarap... terima kasih kerana memberikan kami segunung impian dan harapan, dan memusnahkan nya dengan sekelip mata. Seseungguhnya, kami sangat kecewa, namun pasrah atas ketentuan-Nya...

the teslions!!! haha

eh terlupe lak, for tesl in kms, u guys also did it well. never give up!!! we always support you all, and i'm not really sure bout your result cse it is so complicated!! till now, i didnt even understand how many subjects do u actually took!! sory
... pape pwn, we all live together, study together....and success together too...

KMS the legendary....

well, this is a very special edition to all the KMS students. . .
i got a news from a friend of mine from KMB. during their pre-departure briefing today at MARA head-quaters i gezz.... the MARA officer slipped out saying that KMS is the best A-level scholl in nation!!! congrats to all my friends, i salute ur dedication and sacrifaction during exam month. u guys left all the entertainment as posible as u can, u studied al way long.... i believe all the hardworks are paid off..... here are some of the statistic bout our a-level result :
for engineering,
49 out of 80 getting 15 points = 61 %
19 out of 80 achieved 14 and 13 points = 24 %

so, total of students who make their way to uk n australia is 85 %...it is an outstanding result !!! seriously, mdm hairiah said, the juniours tga mengelabah gile skrg... but she said that our result is unbeatable!!! gempak en... conrats once again....

it's very tempting

kenapa tempting? cse today, KMS studs, me, lan, bat, afiq, q, ise, AK, anoz, bro , ago, bella , bella, tracie, mira and rambut gather tok kali keberape tah... we played paintball and unfortunately, no memories are recorded as nobody brings the camera, only q brought web cam..... its exciting cse antare sume tuh, only rambut and bella je yg pernah main...bile die briefing bout paintball, ak x phm sepatah haram pwn die ckp....nak kte english x...tapi in malay pwn ak still blurr.. haha. rm 55 melayang dalam mase x smpi 2 jam pwn bermain, it could be our last meeting together as most of us will be very busy after this kot... then, ktorg played 'flag catcher' ahaha, pandai2 je aku hentam name die, out of 5 games, team rambut menang due kali and lost to afiq's team. thre are so many bruises on our body and it's damn knackered you noe as we played at 2 p.m in the afternoon.. mmg terbaik la kan???? haha... after that, all 5 cars rushed to afiq's new house whre damn best giler bilik afiq!!!! kat cne, mak die masak food yg sgt2 bnyk....menu nye, :
1) ayam rendang
2) lala msk sambal
3) sotong goreng tepung
4) ikan siakap sweet sour
5) sayur goreng
6) tomyam ayam
pergh, bnyk nnk mampos ktorg makan, maklumlah, lunch da dekat pukol 4 petang en... haha....around 5 tuh, ktorg sume pwn balik, takot jln jem terutamanya nk menghala ke kwsn rumah ak kan... even ak rse team ak kalah sbb ak, tapi damn, it was a really trully amazing experience... if you guys never try it yet, u should do it here!!! in MALAYSIA...haha

second..

it's my second time...and at the same day plak tuh... x ley blah... excited gilerrr.... bru letak new pic...sgt burok..why? cse i'm not fotogenik and tak hensem langsung... so girls dont read my blog k... wakakaka.... hmmm.... just nak cite...since i got my A-level result, i never have a damn free leisuring day...not even a day... x la bz. tapi saje membusykan diri... samalam, i hang out with my buddy from Kolej MARA Seremban... afiq, hakim and bat... had a fun day...pegi lepak kt low yat yang memang mcm bangang tak tahu nak buat ape..pusing2 , usha laptop ( da ade target da nk beli mane...bat tau ah kot) haha... pastu dok layan si bat nie mencari laptop impian yang murah, tapi nak spec yang mantap....so malaysian ( bak kate afiq la) haha... pas2, dgn x semena2..pegi mid val and the garden... best and bosan...same..usha laptop...tapi x beli2 pwn...nak tunggu duit MARA kot... pas2, dalam kol 5, kami eume meluncur laju di jalan MRR2....nak pegi cheras, melawat rumah bat. singgah makan nasi lemak sotong yang manatap hasil nukilan mak bat and wat pillow talk kat tingkat 3 rumah bat ( besor kan) haha...best2..pas2 ktorg buat kerja gile. hakim dengan gaye bapak2 menelipon seorang pelajar kms. membahasekan diri sebagai officer MARA, said dat she cannot go to uk..haha cuak gile bab la ak kte... terdiam membisu wanita itu.. haha...nak tau spe, teka2 ah sendiri. haha... then i got a new haircut kat sebuah saloon yang murah di Jusco setiawangsa... melayang lah duit ak lagi..haha. panjang nye entry nie..mesti bosan bace.haha

first time

mak aih,
pergh...allhamdulillah... finally, i hv my own website or diary.... very excited nak start blogging...macam dalam kepale nie nak tulis.... i hv been inspired by many people tok start my own blog... ant it really took a lot of efforts too... haha... so hope that i can consistenly keep my blog updated with new stories, gossips....haha