mungkin ini suatu ujian. . .

Assalamualaikum

dah 2 hari aku x update blog ini,... entahlah... mungkin juda kerana sudah terlalu kecewa. . . namun aku tahu bahawa perasaan ini bakal memudaratkan diri aku sendiri . . . i am mentally and physically retarded !!!


subahanallah,

ujian ini is very, very tough... maybe some of you mite think i am over... but then you got to feel it first.. feel the pain, the torture the patience and the anxiety... it has been almost 6 days since Friday, without no new, no hope but only a short sentence ' a SLIM chances' . . . no words can display the pain, no words can ease the pain. . . no i felt pity and sorry to myself. i am the one who gve blossoming words to mira and liana when results were out. . . told them to be strong, courage....

'they are not delicate flowers, but they are SUPERWOMEN ' -- i supported them with my words. . .beautiful isn't it?

but i noe it never easy their life... it just can make them smile. . outside. .

but i get lots of support. . .from my friends. . .and this is the special one...it make me realise how stupid i am . . .
"bt to be truthful, you guys dserve each and every chance to go to uk, this is sumtg to make u guys appriciate uk better when you actually thre. faiz, if i can get tru dis, so cn u, u are obviously stronger than me. . ."

i belive wut she said. . . and i belive that i am gonna get tru this very well. . .at least, no more negative thoughts. . .

but still, . . . deep in my heart, it is still painfull . . .

-ouch-