dalam diam

bismillah.

atas nama Allah yang segala pujian dalam mengagungkan-Nya.

dalam diam....

dah 3 tahun rupanya.

aku di bumi UK. . .

kalau dulu.....

aku berazam untuk menjadi yang terkaya! yang terhebat!

tapi kini. . .

azam itu tetap sama...

cuma ia bersandarkan atas keredhaan Allah.

terima kasih Allah.

kerana kau aku masih lagi mengingatimu. aku lebih mengenalimu, aku lebih mencintaimu.

atas rahmatMu, aku bersujud padaMu. . .

kerana kau,

Murabbiku,

Illahku,

Malikku,

Allah. aku bersyukur.

semangat.

aku rase.

satu keperluan untuk menyampaikan.

bukan hanya dengan madah kata mahupun tauladan.

mungkin.

dengan pena aku bisa melukis.

dengan pena pantas ku bicara.

dengan pena kalimah Allah diungkapkan.

AllahuAkbar.

Bismillah....

MY NAME IS KHAN

ASSALAMUALAIKUM,

pliz muslim, pliz watch MY NAME IS KHAN. is't a very good movie with huge impact in the storyline. its about how beautiful islam is. . . its about us, islam is not only a religion but also our lifestyle. never ashamed if u're islam or u hv to wear scarf. be proud of those things that make you different with non muslim. show to the world that we are not a terrorist, we are muslim, a human being, a servant of ALLAH who is not deserved to be punished, attacked, killed by other human. . .

for those who have time, watch that movie open your mind and watch with your open heart. . .

wslm,

a my name is MUHAMMAD and i'm not a terrorist. . .

rindu pada rasul ALLAh

hari nie. . .

bukan hari semalam,

n belom lg hari esok . .

hari nie, aku dapat another GB **0 amount of money from university =)

glad, tapi ingat rezeki tuh dari ALLAH. . . sume nye belongs to HIM.

remember, kita cume meminjam dan duit sebanyak mane, xkan menjamin kejayaan kite di duni mahupun akhirat.

ade orang kate, bile duit banyak, lagi seronok. boleh buat ape saje kat dunia nie, boleh beli ape je yg kite nak dan boleh mendapat penghormatan dari masyarakat sekeliling. inilah manusia, bila tiada iman dan taqwa dalam diri, harta, rupa paras, dan kuasa menjadi ukuran. . . padahal, jika dinilai kembali, ALLAH x pernah melihat dan mengukur manusia ciptaan-Nya selain ukuran iman dan taqwa.

tapi ALLAH MAHA PEMURAH, allahamdullilah, ini rezeki, pinjaman dari tuhan. aku perlu ingat duit itu bukan duit aku sorang, masih banyak lagi tanggungjawab yang harus dilaksanakan pabila ALLAH itu memberi dan melimpahkan nikmat dan kurniaan-Nya pada hamba-Nya. . .

aku akan terus cube untuk melaksanakan segala tanggungjawab itu. Pasti ada yang menilai dan melihatnya. . .

tapi aku rindu pada Rasullulah . . .

ingat aku pada kisah ini,

“Alangkah teringinnya di hatiku andai aku berpeluang bertemu dengan saudara-saudaraku,” ujar Rasulullah sallallaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam.

Suasana hening di pinggiran perkuburan al-Baqi’. Merenung tempat semadi para mukminin yang telah pergi, dan pasti Baginda juga akan menyertai mereka, seperti kita semua.

“Bukankah kami ini juga saudara-saudaramu wahai utusan Allah?” para sahabat melontarkan soalan.

Persoalan.

Jika Nabi sallallaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam merindukan saudara-saudaranya, apakah ada saudara yang lain selain mereka, para sahabat?

“Kalian adalah sahabatku. Ada pun saudara-saudaraku yang kumaksudkan, mereka adalah orang-orang beriman yang belum ada!” jawab Rasulullah sallallaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam. . .

SUBAHANALLAH ..

bayangkan nabi, kekasih ALLAH mencintai orang-orang beriman . . kita patot berusaha ke arah itu. jangan biarkan cinta nabi bertepuk sebalah tangan, rebutlah peluang untuk menjadi kekasih kepada kekasih pencipta seluruh umat manusia. . .

salam sayang dari liverpool . . .

wassalam . . .

nothing

assalamualaikum,

nampak nye, it has been a while aku x update blog ini. . . mungkin tiada masa atau tiada kata yang perlu aku kongsikan bersama. . . tapi kadang2 aku lupe yang sebenarnya, ade banyak sangat benda aku nak share . . . ALLAH tak hantar aku ke UK for nothing. it means sumting. . . and of coz sangat berat beban yg perlu dipikul . . .

aku dah beli tiket balik ke Malaysia. . . x sabar gile nak balik. . . last wekend aku ke cardiff melwat langkawians . . . . sangat best. . . last jumpa time kat melaka where at that moment, nobody can guarentee that we can pass the exam . . .to uk . . but now, everything has changed. . . now i'm in Liverpool . . . i got a whole new life here. . . LIVERPOOL is never the same as MALAYSIA... that's for sure. . . nobody can denies that we all fall in luv with UK at first sight. . . =0

easter nie, we plan to go to SPAIN and GERMANY !!!! then TURKI is the next destination during summer, just before going back to MALAYSIA on 20th of june. . .( my mum cant wait for me anymore) . . .n me too of coz. . .

ryte now, study sangat x best. aku amik mudah everything eventhough it's very hard and difficult. . . aku takut.. nanti aku lalai dengan nikmat tuhan ini. . .

GLASGOW AND EDINBURGH, I'M CUMMING!!!

x sbr, esok nk g manchester lalu bertolak ke glasgow malam esok gak..by car.. haha... tapi kene siapkan assignmnet case-study dulu.. macam bangang je...kene buat sustainable development tok product.. da le kene dlm english =( huh... malas tol.. tapi takpe, demi glasgow....i'm ready for anything... kat luar da makin sejuk..bukan sejuk2 biase tapi menusuk kalbu punye.. nak kuar kene le pakai 3 lapis...huahuahua...

ape nak wat dengan duit nie...

hehe,
aku teringin sgt nak ade camera slr...nikon d300...tunggu duit uni masok...stret aku beli.. cant wait gile...haha

notts game having the blast

Arini, pukol 5 pagi aku da depart fm liverpool by bus after took only 2 hous nap in chester room.
Lebih kurang kol 7 tuh, aku pn smpi la di notts.. Nott uni is a campus uni, so obviosly their uni mmg chantek n sgt besor.
Siap ade tasik n swan, itik, sume2 tuh.. Mmg btol la org kte rmi gile msian kt uk. Mak aih, penoh gile ngn mamat cina n melayu
Kat cne tuh. Mau beribu gak lah yg muncul... N of coz rmi gile kawan aku kenal.. Dak2 langkawi, kms sume ade..
Siap ade yg aku x kenal name lg.. X sangke rupe2nye 'pain' yg tegor aku tuh is actually my homeroomate kot kt lgkw.
Bodoh nye la aku siap boleh lupe lak tuh. Mmg wt malu jerk kan.. Haha.

Pergh, kt cne aku mkn bnyk giler... Mkn segala jenis masakan melayu yg ade. Almaklumlah, da kempunan n kebulur tym tuh.
N sedup2 lak tuh.. Aku tgk muke dak2 uk nie, sume nye sangap tgk lauk melayu.. Haha.. Ape lah nasib di perantauan.. Huhu
Plg seronok kt cne of coz la jmpe mmbr balik en. Rse mcm xnk berpisah ngn diorg.. Rindu and sangat best ... Huh..
Then pkol 4 ptg cmtuh ktorg g town nottingham.. Bndr die agak jauh fm uni campus but mmg besor gak la..
Bndr diorg siap ade tram tuh.. Best2 tpi ak x sempat naek la.. Sbb rse nye kene byr kot.. Tpi bndr2 kt uk nie aku tgk sume same je.
Kedai yg sme, street2 yg lbh kurang same... Tym tutp pn awal. Haha. Well, penat la plak tulis blog tru blckbry.. Stakat nie je luw.
Skg nie aku on the way to birmingham. Alang2 da kt cni, singgah la rmh pakcik muid dlu... Skg nie aku dlm tren nie.. Tren die lembab je.
Stndrd naek ktm la plak. Tapi sharp la mse die.. Hehe. Bye2

weekend

hurm.. tetibe hati aku berkobar2 nk post new entry...after usha2 blog dak2 ib kms yg skg nie kt india...they are having great life.. and i think i should have too... wekend nie, mmg xde plan, kerja memang berlambak gile !!! bru due minggu, aku da kene buat 5 tests online, 2 lab report and 1 reading assingnment!!! bnyk tuh n mcm bese aku x complete even 1 pwn.. haha

smlm, rumah aku da ade internet connection.. 10 mbps whichis considered as slow here but way too fast in malaysia...haha.. well it is cheap, we only have to pay 20 pounds monthly and we get unlimited download. and for those yang x tahu lg... i just bought a new blackberry... it is not mine yet cse i took pay monthly and the contract is 25 pounds monthly for 24 months..geee lame en... ramai tanye why dont u take iphone instead of blcberry..but my answer is simple, i think blackberry is just enough for me... i wont spend too much time melayan hp pwn..so...mmg ok sgt la blackberry tuh..and btw, its blcberry curve, model 8900..haha

esok, ade trip to anfield which obviously i am not as excited as hakim and muid...tpi as far as i'm concern, i'm in liverpol now, so it is a must to visit the stad!!! hahaha.. and last wekend, i went to st heles carboot. it's my first time but i managed to bought a ZARA men winter clothe which cost me only 5 pounds..haha..best2 and yeah of coz everybody envy me so much...haha...

it has been 3 weeks i'm here. and everytg is good here. due tiga hari nie, the weather mmg best, no rains at all and yg ade is the shining sunshine which to be honest i love the warm so much..hahaha...and kat sini, mmg da menunjukkan ciri2 ke"fall"an nye... daun2 gugur and pokok sume bootak..haha... its my first season....and hope to see more..haha..lets share the pics...haha

house warming

Helo ... Nie first entry aku fm my own blackberry.. N I love it .. Hajat nak beli iphone x kesampaian kerana terlalu mahal.. Aku kene la save money skert di bumi bertuah nie.. Ye la plan da mcm2 tpi klu xde duit, x syok la pulak en... Hahaha
Well, smlm aku, muid n hakim buat house warming .. Special tok family2 angkat ktorang yg da bnyk berjase and bantu ktorg time ktorg mule2 smpi cni dlu..
Menu nye ialah ... Jeng2 NASI LEMAK , TRiFlE and ayam goreng .. Best x? Hebat x ktorg msak? Haha
And thanks a lot to dak2 manc yg dtg tok tlg ktorg skali.. Bat n alip pwn ade.. X sangke ktorg berjumpe lg di bumi liverpool ini.. Allhamdulillah ..
Klu nk tgk pics bnyk2, sudilah2 menjenguk blog bat yang bru siap dibuat..haha ' bat aku da promote blog ko' haha

I'M HERE

salam,
it has been a while i didnt visit this blog. maybe due to the buzyness and kat sini xde internet connection lagi kt my new home. this is my new address , 35, connaught road, kensington fields, liverpool, merseyside L7 8RW . . sape2 nak singgah, just let me know.. this house is really enormous actually. most probably rabu next week will get the connection. Liverpool is nice. the town is not that big but it is really amazing. . . kalau nak bargain kat sini, memang best gile... the prices are rather cheap but never convert them into RM ok!!! because if you do that, u'll never buy anything here. . . i just moved into a new double-storey house and i got the master bedroom for god sake. . . i'll post some pictures here and you will surprise!!! and i eat well here eventhough i'm not used to cook, but as time goes by, i'll get used to it. well, being here, there are many pros and cons. . . the cons is i miss my mum so much here. i called her everyday. i like the weather. it allows me to go anywhere by walking. . . and i didnt tired at all. . .surprisingly. . . .

aku baru je bought a new sweater kat PRIMARK. aku rase PRIMARK nie same macam JUSCO la... barang2 die murah...very cheap actually. u can buy a kemeja with only £3 only.. tapi cantik2 la their designs... and its worth the price kot. sabtu nie ade open house rayer and ahad nie nak g carboot. kat rumah tuh, ade 5 channels je..dah la sume merepek je...lagi best tv3 in comparison. so, nak kene beli PREVIEW box to get 45 chanells in total la.. kat sini, 3 things that is so important...
1st, students card ( you can get massive discount in branded shops, railway tickets and everythings)
2nd, is your debit card...( kat sini £50 is a very large amount, and most of them didnt accept £50 notes , so kalau nak beli barang2 sume, you just insert your debit card, enter your pin code . . . senang kan? ) and
the last things is INTERNET CONNECTION ( every assesments, tests, lecture notes are in VITAL- virtual internet teaching kat Liverpoool la ) . . . .

the first week of lectures is ok la... the class is not too pack...but i have difficulties to speak and understand the language . . . at first i feel so bad and stupid but i'll try my best here... haha...

SALAM AIDILFITRI

SELAMAT AIDILFITRI 2009

hari ini hari raya pertama,
macam biase aku ke rumah makcik aku di datuk keramat
kat sane sangat meriah la,
boleh makan, dapat duit raye
and ramai orang..
meriahla jugak. . .

tapi,
minggu depan,
INSYALLAH,
aku akan pergi,
sekarang nie still x rase ape2.
hahaha.....
aku rase lame lagi ah nak tunggu 26 sept nie,
mb sbb da lame sangat menunggu nak fly.
tapi aku ade masalah accomodation ah,
aku xde rumah lagi,
maksudnya,
aku kene tumpang rumah senior la kat cne,
and Biro Perhubungan Awam
Malay Speaking Circle kate,
ktorg nnt smpi2 kene join prog keluarga angkat!!!
terangkat2 la aku nanti...hahaha

lagi satu,
duit MARA pwn x dapat lagi...hahaha
mb rabu nie kot pegi amik..
yeeehaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!
kaye la aku nampaknye...
wakakakaka...

counting the days. . .

arini aku wat visa,

aku amik medical check up,
alhamdulilah,

nothing is wrong with it. . .

even,

aku kene cucuk 5 kali tok amik darah,

sebab blood presure rendah,

or mb sbb aku puase,

tapi sakit and lebam tempat cucukan tuh,

tetap terase,

sampai sekarang. . .

aku perlu bersyukur,

harus bersyukur,

atas nikmat dan rezeki,

yang ALLAH berikan,

aku tahu,

peluang bukan datang bergolek,

aku akan terus merebut . . .

aku akan terus terbang . . .

melebarkan sayap ku,

doakan kejayaan ku...

. . .Insyallah. . .

you all are invited !!!

salam,
to all my KMS friends, we are organizing "majlis berbuka puasa beramai"
you all are invited, even you are not staying in kl, but if you want to spend time together, jom la dtg.. here are the details :

place
At Flaming Steamboat Buffet Restaurant
Bandar Sunway, Petaling Jaya, Selangor

Beside Sunway Pyramid/Sunway Lagoon

124, Jalan PJS 11/2, 46150 Banday Sunway, Selangor, Malaysia

* easy access by KTM, drop at stesen setia jaya, the KL studs will pick you up*

menu
mainly steamboat la

Halal Food Type:
Up to 150 Items
Steamboat Buffet
Inclusive:
Ice-Cream
Chocolate Fondue
Free - Flow Drinks
Ice Kacang

Soup Base:
Tomyam & Chicken Soup

if you want to see more, click here

date
on this upcoming wednesday
16 / 09 /2009

time
6 p.m till 10 p.m

price
rm 23 or could be less
*depends on how many we are*

confirmation
pliss tell me( faiz ), anoz or amira last on MONDAY cse we want
to book the restrn as soon as posible
my num : 0173695082

P/s : this is valid for all KMS students only, kalau boleh can we have our final grand meeting or reunion together. those who yg kebetulan is around kl due to UK things, korg dialu-alukan datang. Budak TESL, jgn malu2, jom ramai2... klu boleh, dtg la berkumpulan, make my job easier...

if any inquiries, dont hesitate to call or message me ( i prefer you call) haha

syukur...

assalamualaikum,
firstly, thanks for all my friends yang bg supports and your prayers, without you all, mb this wont be hapening. . . well, td around 12 noon, i got call from ms rudi and she said, " faiz, u're going to uk" ... aku pwn melonjak kegembiraan, kesyukuran... well, this is really a dreams come true k... i never expected, at the begining it was so hard, but at the end, mmg rse sgt berpuas hati... ak tros la bgtau kawan2 ku yang laen, lan, hakim, bat, rambut, anoz, muid...haha..bg spe yg x tahu, muid pwn lepas gak g liverpool, uk...best la...

so, ak pwn rush la pegi bngunan mara kol 3 cmtuh. . bat amik aku from my house. . . lan, rmbt and anoz da tngu di banggunan mara. well, ktorg pwn went to 3rd level. . n nk jmpe pn Norashikin. . act, she is the one who will guide kms studs bile time nak fly nanti. . . so, u'll meet her sumday. . tapi sangat menyedihkan, bile die jmpe ktorg, die cakap, " kirim salam la dengan 'pelajar kecewa' ". . aku lagi kecewa mendengarnya. . .sebenarnye, aku terkilan dengan sikap pelajar yang berani menghantar post tersebut di dlm berita harian. . . fikirla, mara bukan nye berdiam diri, tetapi diorg berusaha tok membantu. . .jangan la menunjukkan kekecewaan kepada institusi yang telah sponsored you all. it's rude act. lain kali, x tahu ape2, jgn la pakai tibai je. x baek. seolah2 anda tidak menghargai usaha2 mereka. . . biarla, siapa yang makan cili, die yang terase pedas nye....ditujukan khas tok budak kelantan tuh.

so then, akak dilla pwn bwk ktorg msok ke mmeeting room nak serahkan all the doc... mak aih, tebal nye doc tuh setebal buku ' chemistry of life' tuh... wel die serahkan my offer letter. together with borang tajaan komputer , borg medicl check up, borg penjamin sume... bnyk la act... pas2, ak pwn pop up soklan, bile ktorg nie dijangke fly? pas2 ngn selamber nye, kak dilla tuh kate, 19 sept.... perh awal gile ... x logik kan. pas2 die kate, mengikut ape yang dirancang begitu lah. diorg nk hantar sekali 28 org budak kms teros. . . so, mmg kene rush la kan. . . here is the list that i should do :

- menghantar borang2 mara

- membuat medical check up

- beli laptop

- selesaikan urusan visa

- tu je yang plg penting sblm anda fly yer....laen2 will come under those things...haha

then, da selesai tuh, ktorg pwn pegi la klcc...nak berbuka posa... mmg topic ktorg always ah bout uk. . . sume da berangan gile kot...haha...tpi yang special nye, rambut,lan,bat treated me and anoz dekan ' manhattan fish market ' tuh... best and sedup and of coz, mahal..haha thanks to them... yang laen2 tuh, bile nak belanje aku pulak? haha

MEETING WITH DATO' SERI SHAFIE APDHAL

hurmm.... assalamualaikum
first sori kalau this entry agak kelam kabut.. oleh kerana hp pwn bru recover from kerosakkan yang terok, maka boleh lah beta meng'update' blog yang sudah lame mendiamkan diri ini..


so, rse cm better tros masok ke tajuk je la.. berita yang kita sume tunggu selama ini,....

so on 8th august at 11 a.m... me, bro and anoz rushed to the parliment dekan jalan parlimen... time tuh ak rse sgt excited, mb sebab nie first time ak nk jumpe menteri kot and nak tengok dengan biji mate kepale aku sendiri cmne dewan negara and dewan rakyat tuh... haha... bukan sbb psl appeal uk. . mule2 ktorang relax je tetapi, bile da msok ofis menteri tuh, YA ALLAH cuak dengan tidak semena2 menguasai diri ak, and anoz... haha... lepas tuh, ktorg gadoh, sape yang perlu duduk sebelah menteri. ak pwn menolak anoz ke seat 'special' tersebut... haha

before ktorg actually went into the ofis, we had a short conversation with Timbalan Ketua Pengarah Pendidikan, Hanisah Omar.... haha... sian die. x pasal2 kene panggil dengan menteri, mesti die bengang gile ngn kitorg. kah2... well, as expected, she seriously bersikap sangat negative and memandang rendah dengan KMS students. Agaknye kite nie pelajar kelas kedua la kot... haha... she asked us the reason why we all not applied for top uni like Imperial, UCL, sume2 tuh... wel, dengan perasaan rendah diri, aku pwn told la cse ktorg lambat apply due to result to uk yang keluar lambat... kemungkinan aku yang bercakap too perlahan or die rse my answer is not relevant, she asked again and this time anoz jawab...(dengan mengunakan bahase BAKU) haha... tapi, she still tak puas hati and die pwn kate la,

TKP : the reason why we want to send you all to oz and nz is... sbb we want all the creams of the creams to spread out to all region... klu KMB we send to UK, so ktorg nak u all go to oz...

sgt menyakitkan hati kan dengar.. seolah2 tidak membantu langsung... xpela. they have their own reasons.

hati kecil faiz : lorh ktorg x pertikaikan kenapa x hantar ktorg ke uk, ktorg pertikai kan kenapa x menepati janji..LOL.... aku pwn membisikkan ke telinga bro..haha

so selepas tuh, tetibe Dato' seri pwn masok, ak teros terdiam x terkate...lepas da msok bilik die and bersalaman, p/s: wajib cium k tangan die...bagus kan? . . . huhu... lepas tuh kitorg pwn duduk la... Dato' tuh, tros la bukak cerita psl uk nie... he really wants to see Malays students to fither their studies to the top universiti in the world... die pwn pertikaikan kenapa MARA memperlakuakn begini kepada kite. . . oleh kerana costrain, die pwn tros la bukak cerita bout money. he asked the tkp how much do they need to send us thre... tkp said : 24 million.!! tersedak ak mendengar nye...tapi kontrol..weyh depan menteri, sume kene control k.. ak nk sendawe pwn kene telan, apetah lagi bile rse nk terkentut kan, mengigil lah ak menahan nye...haha . . ok merepek.. then he said, ok, we can get the money and they already asked 225 million from the goverment...huh..relive ak mendengarnye...lepastuh die panggil setiausaha sulit die tok call tan sri mane tah nak tnye bout money tu la.. and insyallah, they got the verbal agreement. . . x payah la kitorg mempertahankan why they should send us to uk..huhu... pas2, tkp tuh told the minister, dat act, ktorg sume da ad placement kat oz!! pergh...memang bengang la mendengarnye, die sgt x membantu kami babe.. xpe...sbb menteri tuh buat bodoh je...kah2...

TAPI,

kat meeting tuh, xde la ktorg nampak any black and white or any aggrement saying tah we're confirm going to uk... but dari gaye nye, die siap bagi nasihat lagi kat ktorg, pergi uk nanti, jangan belaja ilmu engineering sahaja, belaja cara hidup, politik, bahase kat sane jugak.... and mcm bese la sroh bantu org2 melayu... ---> i dont noe wut to expect from here, but i think we got the verbal aggrement from the minister himself la kan...

dekat 20 minit berlaku,,,, meeting tuh pwn habis..haha.. so klu org tanye kat ak, cne dapat or not, i can only answer the result is positive and ryte now ktorg will follow up secepat mungkin... now, i need you all to doa and pray sebnyak mungkin. even the chance looks bright, we cant never know..miss rudi pwn pesan, jangan lah terlalu suke, selagi kite x dpt tiket flite, anytg can happend even we only left with 20 % uncertainty, mara can always use the 20% as the reason for not sending us thre...huhu

well,

tribute too:

........................................................ANOZ...........................................................................................
..................................................BRO....................................................................................................
...................................MAK ANOZ.....................................................................................................
.....................................................................MAKCIK BRO...............................................................
.........................................................................MISS RUDI...............................................................
..................................TRACIE.............................................................................................................

x lupe pade izlan, hakim and bat...thanks for giving us strength and reason why we cannot give up easily...love you all...

mungkin ini suatu ujian. . .

Assalamualaikum

dah 2 hari aku x update blog ini,... entahlah... mungkin juda kerana sudah terlalu kecewa. . . namun aku tahu bahawa perasaan ini bakal memudaratkan diri aku sendiri . . . i am mentally and physically retarded !!!


subahanallah,

ujian ini is very, very tough... maybe some of you mite think i am over... but then you got to feel it first.. feel the pain, the torture the patience and the anxiety... it has been almost 6 days since Friday, without no new, no hope but only a short sentence ' a SLIM chances' . . . no words can display the pain, no words can ease the pain. . . no i felt pity and sorry to myself. i am the one who gve blossoming words to mira and liana when results were out. . . told them to be strong, courage....

'they are not delicate flowers, but they are SUPERWOMEN ' -- i supported them with my words. . .beautiful isn't it?

but i noe it never easy their life... it just can make them smile. . outside. .

but i get lots of support. . .from my friends. . .and this is the special one...it make me realise how stupid i am . . .
"bt to be truthful, you guys dserve each and every chance to go to uk, this is sumtg to make u guys appriciate uk better when you actually thre. faiz, if i can get tru dis, so cn u, u are obviously stronger than me. . ."

i belive wut she said. . . and i belive that i am gonna get tru this very well. . .at least, no more negative thoughts. . .

but still, . . . deep in my heart, it is still painfull . . .

-ouch-

solat hajat. . .

alam,
kepada semua pelajar kms terutama nya yg dpt apply to uk, here i got some news from you all... it's directly from miss rodina... so, ryte now, as akak hanif said, the incentive programme is not 100% yet. i need you to be patient k, ... seriously. MARA is considering about financial situation to send us to UK. so, the director and miss rudi will have a final meeting with them to confirm whether the incentive uk prog is still valid or not. do not panic, we have back up from director of bhgn pengajian tinggi, en azmi but miss rodi cannot say anything about the chances yet... what i need you all to do now, is pray to God, hoping that they will have a smooth meeting on monday, doakan lah, agar bukakan and lembutkan hati deputy director of education (she is the one who gonna say yes or no) . . . actually, we are not in the safe side yet... anything could be happen.. so here is the plan, even we all are not together, but still i hope that everybody can buat solat hajat, tahajud on ahad malam isnin... doakan la agar dipermudahkan jalan untuk kita ke UK and so on... miss rodi n director really need our prayers and supports... do not call them yet, they are very busy ryte now. let me be the one who keep in touch with her, and i will updates anytg to you all....plizz.... nie bulan ramadhan...semoga diperkenankan doa kite. insyallah... kite akan sentiase berusaha...

liverpool

kat atas nie,,,pic city of liverpool....
ntah la... i'm still not sure whether i still get a chance to go there or not... i really want to go there so badly. . . this Moday, Miss rodi and director will go to MARA hq for the final meeting discussing about Uk studs from KMS.... dear my friends.... pliz... doakan kelancaran meeting tuh.,.. doakan hajat dan usaha kami selama ini.... membuahkan hasil... MARA said they are considering about financial situation first before sending the students to uk... come on MARA, it has been proven that KMS studs is not as stupids as you think... we can achieved best school for a-level exam troughout the nation... come on, give us another chance, and we will show to the world who we are actually... plizz.... listen to us...

crying

aku ingin menagis , menjerit dan meraung... tuhan, berikan kami kekuatan untuk menghadapi cabaranmu....