mungkin ini suatu ujian. . .

Assalamualaikum

dah 2 hari aku x update blog ini,... entahlah... mungkin juda kerana sudah terlalu kecewa. . . namun aku tahu bahawa perasaan ini bakal memudaratkan diri aku sendiri . . . i am mentally and physically retarded !!!


subahanallah,

ujian ini is very, very tough... maybe some of you mite think i am over... but then you got to feel it first.. feel the pain, the torture the patience and the anxiety... it has been almost 6 days since Friday, without no new, no hope but only a short sentence ' a SLIM chances' . . . no words can display the pain, no words can ease the pain. . . no i felt pity and sorry to myself. i am the one who gve blossoming words to mira and liana when results were out. . . told them to be strong, courage....

'they are not delicate flowers, but they are SUPERWOMEN ' -- i supported them with my words. . .beautiful isn't it?

but i noe it never easy their life... it just can make them smile. . outside. .

but i get lots of support. . .from my friends. . .and this is the special one...it make me realise how stupid i am . . .
"bt to be truthful, you guys dserve each and every chance to go to uk, this is sumtg to make u guys appriciate uk better when you actually thre. faiz, if i can get tru dis, so cn u, u are obviously stronger than me. . ."

i belive wut she said. . . and i belive that i am gonna get tru this very well. . .at least, no more negative thoughts. . .

but still, . . . deep in my heart, it is still painfull . . .

-ouch-

solat hajat. . .

alam,
kepada semua pelajar kms terutama nya yg dpt apply to uk, here i got some news from you all... it's directly from miss rodina... so, ryte now, as akak hanif said, the incentive programme is not 100% yet. i need you to be patient k, ... seriously. MARA is considering about financial situation to send us to UK. so, the director and miss rudi will have a final meeting with them to confirm whether the incentive uk prog is still valid or not. do not panic, we have back up from director of bhgn pengajian tinggi, en azmi but miss rodi cannot say anything about the chances yet... what i need you all to do now, is pray to God, hoping that they will have a smooth meeting on monday, doakan lah, agar bukakan and lembutkan hati deputy director of education (she is the one who gonna say yes or no) . . . actually, we are not in the safe side yet... anything could be happen.. so here is the plan, even we all are not together, but still i hope that everybody can buat solat hajat, tahajud on ahad malam isnin... doakan la agar dipermudahkan jalan untuk kita ke UK and so on... miss rodi n director really need our prayers and supports... do not call them yet, they are very busy ryte now. let me be the one who keep in touch with her, and i will updates anytg to you all....plizz.... nie bulan ramadhan...semoga diperkenankan doa kite. insyallah... kite akan sentiase berusaha...

liverpool

kat atas nie,,,pic city of liverpool....
ntah la... i'm still not sure whether i still get a chance to go there or not... i really want to go there so badly. . . this Moday, Miss rodi and director will go to MARA hq for the final meeting discussing about Uk studs from KMS.... dear my friends.... pliz... doakan kelancaran meeting tuh.,.. doakan hajat dan usaha kami selama ini.... membuahkan hasil... MARA said they are considering about financial situation first before sending the students to uk... come on MARA, it has been proven that KMS studs is not as stupids as you think... we can achieved best school for a-level exam troughout the nation... come on, give us another chance, and we will show to the world who we are actually... plizz.... listen to us...

crying

aku ingin menagis , menjerit dan meraung... tuhan, berikan kami kekuatan untuk menghadapi cabaranmu....

tenangkan lah hatiku

subahanallah,
ya Allah betape besar nye ujian-Mu pasa hamba mu ini. . . kau berikan lah kami ruang untuk belajar di UK . . . itulah harapan dan cita2 kami... bantulah kami...kami mengharap bantuan darimu...

berdoalah kalian....

sesungguhnya,
hari ini adalah hari yang paling perit buatku.... ak mendapat berita yang kurang menyenangkan. it's about UK incentive prog... dear my dearest friends... bulan puasa nie, let us pray alot to god..hoping that our dreams will come true.. dont blame college, they did nothing wrong but they had done so many for us. . . they are preparing a new appeal for us.. skrg all i need you all to do. pray alot. pray till no end, niekan bulan puasa.... harap2, MARA akan tukar their decision. . hope they will listen to us...

YA ALLAH,

berikanlah kami harapan dan tunaikanlah hajat kami. kami ingin mengembara di muka bumi mu. kami ingin menghargai segala bentuk kurniaan mu. tapi kami manusia biasa..yang hanya mahukan hajat kami tercapa....

impian ku sedikit tercalar....

arini, bgun je pagi ak tros online... bat suroh ak check my email and here...i read things that i would never expected.... MARA is considering back the UK sponsorhip to KMS students. here are the mail i received from a sister of one of my friends...

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Alhamdulillah, it was such a great moment to see all of you graduating. I was there, a sister of one of you. Siap ada gambar batch dengan banyak nya. Hehe.

Thanks a lot to the 3 seniors, Ruzaini Sheffield, Najib Southampton and Hanafi Leeds for introducing themselves. They are here to quench your curiousity insyaAllah.

Talked to Sir Tamam and Tuan Azmi yesterday. The status of this Incentive UK Programme is not 100% confirmed, mainly due to cost strain by MARA, which is the result of division of MARA and rellocation of funding. Cost was not an issue when they announce this to you last year, but now it is an issue. Jadi, pihak Pengajian Tinggi sedang merayu untuk adik-adik and by next week insyaAllah there will be confirmation.

Jadi, akak harap please avoid doing something that will incur cost until this is confirmed, at the same time, adik-adik mmg originally ada apply AUS/NZ kan? Jadi as a backup, please complete your 3 choice universities soon and other procedures that they require.

I hope you are not turned down by this news. InsyaAllah all of you stand a good chance to go to UK, pray hard to Allah swt, it's Ramadhan, insyaAllah dimakbulkan. ..

Congratulations for officially finishing your A Level!


-----> terima kasih MARA kerana mendiamkan diri selama ini. tiada kabar berita selam 2 minggu. membuatkan kami sentiasa menungu dan menanti dengan penoh kesabaran. tapi sekirannya sudah pasti keputusan nya, beritahulah kami secepat mungkin, sebarkan lah berita supaya tiada antara kami yang terlalu mengarap... terima kasih kerana memberikan kami segunung impian dan harapan, dan memusnahkan nya dengan sekelip mata. Seseungguhnya, kami sangat kecewa, namun pasrah atas ketentuan-Nya...